I have ALWAYS lied about my weight.
By "ALWAYS" I guess I should think about that. I've lied about it since High School when I was old enough to realize my friends weighed less than me.
I even lied on my very first driver's license by 5 lbs. I guess even back then the number in my head and on the scale didn't match. I don't remember what number I wrote down, but I know it wasn't the truth.
But 5 or 10 lbs has always been my "lie buffer." I'm not justifying it. A lie is a lie. I've done it for so long regarding my weight that I guess it's become the norm to shave a few pounds off on paper work.
15 years ago my father-in-law took me to get my driver's license renewed in Minnesota. I wish you all could have known Steve Graves. He was the life of the party and made everyone he met feel like a zillion bucks. I loved that guy! Anyway, I had a good hair day and was feeling good because a student and I from the college where I worked had been getting up at the crack each morning and working out. I did not lie on that driver's license. My smile was genuine because I was looking at Steve trying to hold in a laugh while the girl took my picture. Did I mention I was 145 and it was a good hair day?
Fast forward to 2002. Jason and my pregnant belly and I had just moved from Minnesota to Colorado and I had to get a new driver's license. I was 198 lbs pregnant with gelato/custard/chocolate chip cookie weight, thought it was a good idea to let my hair go curly that day, and had on a large and in charge barf/Pepto pink maternity shirt.
I side-looked over each shoulder as I wrote: 150 in the weight category...5'10" in the height category...and Blue in the box for eye color.
You see, 5'9" to 9 1/2" has always been Five Ten for me (because in my head it helped distribute the weight...and it sounds runway-ish)
150 was a hellofalot better than 198, so writing that was a no-brainer.
And, my eyes are blue. And they are also green. And it just depends on the day. So, I guess that day they were blue.
My 40th birthday is Sunday. The Department of Transportation is closed Sunday so I'm headed to get a new driver's license AND picture today. The information will be as follows:
Height: 5'9"
Weight: 135
Eyes: (I guess we'll have to see, but this morning they have a blue outer ring with a green center...which is too long to enter into the small box that wants a straight answer so maybe I'll go with green for the next 10 years? Who knows?)
So there you have it. So there I have it. I worked my buns off over the last year to lose weight and gain health and a new perspective. It wasn't so I'd be able to tell the truth on my driver's license though that is now an added bonus. It was because I always knew the 5 to 10 lb lie buffer had truth in it.
It feels good to finally tell the truth ;)
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