Here's the deal...this isn't about weight loss. It's not a diet. I don't even advocate you hop on a scale or take measurements.
I'm not intending to lose any weight, actually, just so that is clear.
I feel good and want to remain feeling good.
It's just when I get stressed, historically I will eat...and preparing for trips, even though they are fun and exciting and once in a lifetime opportunities, stress me out. I don't love packing...
I don't know about you, but I will eat in an attempt to stop the stress but the stress only heightens because the focus of the stressful situation then shifts to wishing I hadn't eaten such and such and so goes the cycle.
Just to clarify, the challenge from last night is how I usually live and eat, when things are smooth and life is coasting along...although life doesn't just coast along and things get wonky and the flow hits a dam or cascading waterfall or tons of rocks that slow or heighten the flow and then I have to decide what I'm going to do...which is what I'm working out in the day to day and through counseling.
...am I going to turn to food or to God? What or Who will I let FILL me?
My plea is to have a group who will rally so I can stay strong and not freak out and say, "Screw it all, oh well, just pass the carbs and chocolate!" over the next week and a half. Because this is a #firstworldproblem and God is the Only One Who can deeply, truly, ultimately satisfy us at the core.
And so you know, I am going to enjoy myself in Spain, but for me that doesn't mean I'm going to go hog wild, because I don't want to feel miserable there, either...
Someone I love dearly, when I posted this on Facebook, said this, "You will look AMAZING in a bikini in Spain. Don't do it!!!! Who you are is beautiful, that is what makes the biggest impression!" I want to be clear, because here was my response, "I feel beautiful and already look good in my bathing suit, I just want to stay strong and not stress eat or slack on my day to day normal health routine while preparing, if that makes sense? Not doing something "new" or even a diet! I promise! It's just staying on track. Thanks for the loving!"
In a new favorite book I am reading by Bob Goff called, "Love Does," he says, "God is the master artist and made an original version of us, a priceless (piece) that cost everything to create. A version that can't and won't be created again."
My heart for this challenge is to continue to stay strong, to love myself, in the day to day, not with food rewards but in time with The One Who loves me and made me, treating this gift, this original version of me, a body He intricately designed, with grace, taking care of it, filling it with good, life-giving things He made, along with ample rest, and strength.
For some, this may be a radical change, for me, it's remaining faithful, keeping my eyes on Him, not even focusing on what I can and can't eat, but allowing my eyes to be on Him as I balance in the here and now.